Friday, August 11 10:14 AM
Vous m'avez dit de ne pas parler de vous.
Je ne peux pas l'aider.
Je suis désolé.
Je t'aime.
omg. miracles do happen.
i was on the brink of insanity due to:
- my lost love.
- my brokeness.
at least half the matter is done now. i mean, i kept hoping the situation would get better somehow and it did. after i came home from training last night, i had a letter waiting for me to open on the bar. "TO BE OPENED MY ADDRESSEE ONLY" it read. i thought it was just a stupid confirmation of termination BUT!!!!!!! i was informed i still have a cheque in the office. FOR $381.50.
triple YAY for me!!!!!!!! hahaha.
abby and i are going shopping shopping shopping.
right?
i know you love me. ((:
flee markets, here i come!!!!
i'm sitting in class, so fucking bored. i'm gonna chao during the next breakout to collect the cheque. wheeeee. it's the only thing that is keeping me awake now. ((:
oops. i was updating half way and chaoed anyway. so i'm back to continue. :P
went to get my cheque all the way at Winsland House II. omg. such a tiring journey. and it had a dash of my vicious jealousy. sigh. okay whatever. see, that's why my favourite colour is green and it suits my personality so well. lala. we played that sweet game which ended me kissing someone. i don't know why it felt so natural. i tried not to put any emotion into my day today. so i just looked so fucked up the whole time frowning away in an unlaughy manner. obviously it didn't work for long. i can never seem to keep a straight face, and i'm so soft-hearted i wanna die.
why does it feel like it's so wrong to get close to someone now. maybe i've numbed myself too much the past few days and i just don't want to simply feel. so i met up with my pretty ladies after the whole trip @ TM. haha. long time no see. so fun. we were all just sharing stories - at the same time. seems like things have been going well so far for them. it's comforting to know. ((: so i just reached home and trying to be excited for fireworks tomorrow night. although i'm still unsure of who's actually going. whoever wants to just come la. fullerton darlings.
so i'm writing a new song now. my last one is done already. waiting for my partner in crime - wherever he disappeared to - to fill it in with proper chords and stuff. hopefully recording some of the songs soon. i also have a "poetry blog" under '*poetic relief' on the left. go visit it or something ok? haha. support local talent. erm. i'm still budding la. but whatever. read it. i'll put up a proper skin soon. it looks like shit currently. haha. forgive me.
ever-so-loving steph
